Hurt

Seems like it was yesterday when I saw your face, you were in your hospital room, in pain, in disrupt. You told me how proud you were of me, I smiled and cried, don't leave me ! I wanted you stayed close to me, but I walked away, life was going on. If only I knew what I know today, how it's difficult to live without your kisses, your strange words, if only I knew. I would hold you in my arms, I would take the pain away, I'ld give you the best of me, I'ld spent hours and hours to hear you, I'ld wanted to know everything about you, who you were, what you did, all your dreams and your hopes. Thank you for all you've done, forgive all your mistakes, I forgive you everything. There's nothing I wouldn't do to hear your voice again, sometimes I wanna call you but I know you won't be there, never again on this earth. Ohh I'm so lonely without you, nobody to tell me my truths, nobody to tell me what to do, how to do it. And I'm so sorry for blaming you for everything I just couldn't do, and I've hurt myself by hurting you. Some days I feel broke inside but I won't admit, sometimes I just wanna hide 'cause it's you I miss, and it's so hard to say goodbye when it comes to this... Would you tell me I was wrong ? Would you help me understand ? Are you looking down upon me ? Are you proud of who I am ? I don't hear you, you miss me, I can't see you, where are you by now ? In the stars, in a sun, under my pain, near an angel ? Tell me my dad, can you see me ? There's nothing I wouldn't do to have just one more chance to look into your eyes and see you looking back... I'm sorry for blaming you for everything you just couldn't do and I've hurt myself... If I had just one more day with you, I'ld tell you how much I've missed you since you've been away. But it's so out of line to try and turn back time. Ho my only dad, I'm so sorry for blaming you for everything you just couldn't do and I've hurt myself by hurting you... To you my dad, forever, I love you.